It’s not every day that you see a fit guy dating a bigger girl.So when my girlfriend Gloria wrote an essay about our relationship for Yahoo! Shine, I expected some controversy. What I didn’t expect were people talking about our relationship all over the world-even the ladies on The View had an opinion!Living in Scotland, I saw the story before Gloria - it went live while she was still asleep in San Fransisco. In just a few hours, it got a crazy number of comments (today, there are almost 12,000) and shares on Facebook (3,000 and counting). …
Reading this actually made me cry. I know I’m fat, I don’t hide it. But I struggle everyday because I know I will never find somebody who will love me for who I am inside, my heart, my mind because guys tend to not see past the outside. I also know I’m not ugly, I actually think some days, I even look cute.
This made me cry because I have found my best friend, the person I love, the person I want to be with and share my life with. Sure, there are other boundaries in the way but… this whole story is so close to home, it hurts.
I know most guys can’t find fat girls attractive, Hell I can’t find myself attractive. But I think it mostly stems from the self-hate I have because I know I’m not what guys are looking for. But while I do have some physical preferences, we are all human after all, I fall in love with people who seduce my mind. I’m not even going to start on the internet love thing, or living in different countries.
It’s just hard and it hurts to see exactly my story, but with the outcome I know I’ll never have.